Royal: A Typewriter Story

I feel I should offer a few disclaimers before you read the following story:

  1. I do not drink, but apparently the narrator does.
  2. I love typewriters and mean no offense.
  3. No cats were harmed in the making of this story.


December 23, 2017

It was an impulse buy, totally impractical as demonstrated by the fact that I am typing this on my laptop instead of the metallic clunkers of the aforesaid impulse buy.

But I’ve been suffering writer’s block for some time now and even during short periods of creative constipation (my wife hates the term, but it makes me chuckle) I tend to be reckless, spontaneous. Thank God that Susan has a steady job and, better, an even head.

But this bout of writer’s block is the worst yet. It’s been nearly six months since I’ve written anything worth sharing. The only words I’ve penned are those such as I’m scribbling now: the exaggerated ravings of my private journal. Usually I just use it to jot down ideas I don’t want to lose; it serves as overflow control for the ideas that bubble up in my brain.

But since July the pages once tattooed with colorful bursts of inspiration have devolved into rants about my vacant mind. There seems to be a wall between me and ideas worth writing and this wall seems to be made of blank, white pages. Funny, though, these white pages used to be a source of wonder for me, like a fresh snowfall just waiting to be traipsed through and molded into snowmen and forts. But now, I cannot bear the cold of these empty pages, for I am armed with no thoughts of how to shape them. I’ve run out of the childlike boldness that lead me once to rush headlong into the snow and feel I have become pragmatic (Susan still disagrees) and reserved. No dangerous ideas for me, thank you very much. I am being forced into retirement ten years early, it seems.

Susan would say I am overreacting. “Every artist has a dry spell,” she says. “It’s like the weather; it can’t always rain.”

Her words are comforting, falling gently in her lilting mezzo, but I can’t agree with her. Every artist has a dry spell, but not me. Even Beethoven took breaks to walk through the natural world, pondering and refreshing his mind after explosive productivity. But I’ve never needed such times of refreshment, for I only am at rest when I am doing what I was made to do: write.

Hence, the impulse buy.

There’s an antique store downtown that’s served as the setting for more than one of my stories. Something about the musty air there breathes ideas, much like the dust of an old library is thick with words. I was wandering about under the pretense of doing some Christmas shopping. (Funny, I know. Susan always takes care of that and anything I get her is promptly returned under the guise of “not fitting quite right,” even when what I bought is not clothing.) But, even so, I spent the better part of the afternoon pacing outside of the shop and the better part of the evening wandering around inside it, conscience of the fact that closing time was soon but no particularly caring. After all, my short story, “The Shop,” increased their business enough that the manager can hardly object to my prolonged presence. For all he knew, I was dreaming up another bestseller to boost patronage.

I was not.

Finally, even the hopes for increased shoppers and income could not keep the manager away from his family any longer. (It was the night before Christmas Eve, after all; the preparations were beyond those of a wife alone and all husbands realize that, while they might not do it correctly, they are at least expected to offer help with the holiday preparations.)

“Sir,” he greeted. “Can I help you find anything?”

It was a polite way of asking if he could help me find the door.

“No, thank you,” I replied, continuing to browse the crackling spines of long-abandoned books. It always encouraged and disheartened me to find books in an antique store; on one hand, these works endured for decades and even centuries, but on the other hand, they were long abandoned as reading and had fossilized into vintage decor. It is at once every author’s dream and nightmare and I am fascinated every time.

The manager watched me for a moment, his mouth opening and closing like a fish.

“Any recommendations?” I asked, to break the silence. He breathed a sigh of relief and I expected him to recommend that I check out the pub across the street. Rather, he nodded and disappeared around the shelves. I followed, finding him standing beside a sight so odd I was disappointed in myself for not having noticed it earlier. After all, writers specialize in oddities. (Susan often jokes that this is because writers are oddities. I quite agree with her.)

Before me, the manager stood beside an enormous birdcage made of cast iron. It’s bars were thicker than those of a typical birdcage and my mind suggested at once the image of an enormous raptor roosting in it; no harmless sparrow or lark would need such a barrier. It was a cage made to house a vulture. And then, I noticed what it held: a heavy black beast rested inside bearing lettered teeth and a crest of yellowed paper. On its flat, metal jaw was the emblem: Royal.

“A fine typewriter, I do say,” said the manager.

“It certainly is,” I agreed. I stared at it and had the eery feeling that it was staring back. Being in a birdcage made it feel alive. My fingers twitched. Used to the ease of my laptop’s keyboard, they were aching for a challenge. I could already feel them digging into the weighty keys of the typewriter, could hear the clackity-clack of their action and the chipper bell announcing that I ought to reset the page. I should note that I have never actually used a typewriter, but it is a truth universally acknowledged that all the true writers have at some time or another craved to try.

“It’s a bargain, really,” the manager was saying, but before he could finish, I’d opened my wallet and then waited as he extracted the typewriter from its prison.

“Why was it in there?” I asked simply to make conversation; there is nor ever has been any rhyme or reason to the displays in that marvelous shop.  This very lack of order is what makes it such a great honeypot of inspiration.

“Oh,” he gave off a chuckle, “he’s a fearsome beastie, that Royal.”

I laughed and took the boxed-up typewriter, the door jingling merrily as it swung shut behind me and the manager releasing a sigh of relief and already dialing up his wife to apologize for the delay.


December 25, 2017

Merry Christmas, indeed! An idea has dawned and shines like the star we sing of in church. I woke this morning before the break of dawn, something I have not done since our children were home and young and overeager to unwrap Santa’s gifts.

But I woke and felt immediately that this Christmas was something to greet with the excitement of a child. Something was going to happen, was already happening. I just needed to be awake to witness it.

I lay still, Susan’s ever-even breathing beside me, wondering what it was that I felt was to happen. After twenty minutes, I felt silly. What did I think would happen? Was I expecting there to arise a clatter on the rooftop? To spring from my bed to see what was the matter? I started reciting this cheesy Christmas poem to myself as I fell back into a doze.

But then, I did hear something. But it was not a clatter. It was a clackity-clack. Believe it or not, there is a difference between onomatopoeias; I’ve read enough children’s books in my time as a parent to know.

I sucked in my breath, waiting. The noise fell silent, but I knew I did not imagine it. Braving the cold air, I tiptoed to my office where the typewriter sat in its box, unopened, a Christmas gift to myself. I listened, but heard nothing but the ringing of silence. I could tell by the cold and this crystalline silence that it had snowed overnight.

I peeled open the box. The typewriter sat nestled among tissue paper just as the store manager had wrapped it. I took it from the box and set it on my desk beside my charging laptop. It was silent. Though the air was still, the yellowed paper left by a long-lost writer waved a ghostly greeting.

I squinted at the paper. The ink was faded, but there were certainly words there. I flicked on the light and held the page up to it. I could barely make it out,  but when I did, I cried out in delight. There, printed on the page who knows how long ago was my next idea. I have no qualms over taking it, though it was surely dreamed up and written by some author past. He or she is long gone based on the yellowing of the page and I am a mind in need of ideas, in need of words. And there, before me in the light of Christmas morning, the words have come.

I had never hummed Christmas carols with more vigor than I did this morning, flipping open my laptop and pounding away, writing three thousand words of a story before I heard Susan’s alarm sound. Oh, glorious day! Oh, happy impulse buy! A word has been born again in my mind, though it was written first ages ago.


January 1, 2018

I have scarcely left my office since Christmas. The festivities over, I locked myself inside with a cup of coffee and no blankets (I write best chilled). Bless Susan. She always remembers to bring me refills on coffee and make sure I eat every couple hours… I really need to do something nice for her once I cash in this story. It’s going to be my best yet; I can feel it in my soul as I pound away at the feather-light keys of my laptop.

I rejoice, a writer restored to creativity, and it is no chore to write the story that dances in my imagination. In fact, to write it is the most natural thing in the world to me. That’s why not writing, not dreaming up ideas, was so painful; it goes against my entire nature as a sub-creator. But I am restored. A few faded words on an old typewriter have revived my lazy mind and I am back in the race, streaking past the word count for a novella in record time. I could make this a full-length novel someday. But for now, I must submit it to my editor before she loses faith in my productivity.

I am at rest as I do the work I was born to do. Susan understands and that is what makes us such a good pair. I am wild, spontaneous, and dark, whereas she is calm, practical, and optimistic. But we both agree that one cannot be comfortable unless doing the work one was born to do. And so she balances her work as a professor of mathematics and I power my way through another bestseller.

But I digress.

This will be a killer little book, not just because it is about a little killer. Rather morbid for an idea born on Christmas, but I like it nonetheless. I look fondly at the typewriter as I scribble out this journal entry. It grins back at me with its toothy keys and I cannot suppress a shudder.
Perhaps it is too cold in here.

I glanced back at the typewriter just now and a gruesome image of it licking its black lips crossed my mind. I should laugh. It’s such a ridiculous idea. Besides, I have better things to think about than freakish fancies: I am writing a marvelous little book and what better way to begin the New Year than with a new creation?


January  25, 2018

I’ve been too long absent from my journal, but I have been in the same writing craze as I was when last I wrote. But now I am finished and the manuscript is bundled neatly and en route to my editor. I’ve never written anything so good so quickly and I am shaken. I can scarcely believe it. But I can at last breathe a sigh of contentment, knowing now that my creative dry spell was a temporary trial and perhaps even lead to this great rush of words.

Susan and I went out to dinner for the first time in a month. I listened to her talk about the university and plans for a new math and science center, but I admit I was distracted. As we walked downtown searching for a restaurant, we passed the antique shop and I was set to thinking about the typewriter. I wrote my novella on my laptop and my journal I write by hand, but I feel I owe the typewriter for the idea that revived my spirit. It was the messenger of the words that inspired me, after all.

I could easily restock its paper supply, but where to purchase ribbon? And does it need any maintenance? Why bother…I wouldn’t actually type on it. Not seriously, anyway. But it could be fun to fiddle with now and again.

As soon as we returned home, I went online and ordered several different kinds of typewriter ribbon as well as a repair kit, just in case. I could use a hobby, I told myself, to excuse the money spent.

“Soon you’ll be good as new!” I said, patting the Royal on its iron top. It clicked as I touched and I jerked my hand away. Then I laughed at myself for doing so. It’s just a typewriter and not even a working one.


February 1, 2018

My editor’s feedback was excellent. Usually  my manuscripts return red-penned and gory, looking like victims of some great grammarian battle. But she didn’t even return it this time. Instead, she called me up and asked if she might just forward it to the publisher.

I thought it a prank. This never happens. Not even the best writers get away without a number of revisions. I look at the typewriter as if it is somehow responsible, but know that’s ridiculous.

“Sure,” I said, not wanting to press her. Not wanting to look a gift horse in the mouth, as the old saying goes.

“Terrific,” she said. “This is without a doubt your best work yet, Brad. Keep it up.”

“Thanks,” I said before hanging up. My jaw is still hanging open.

I spent the rest of the day drinking and tinkering with the typewriter. It’s great fun to pound away at its keys, but I am so slow at it I know I’ll never write anything serious on it. Still, I feel like a real writer when I kick back with a drink in one hand and typewriter keys under the other.

What am I saying? I am a real writer! Perhaps I need to cut myself off for now.


February 15, 2018

Two weeks. It’s been two weeks and I’m ready for another idea. Oh yes, and Valentine’s Day was yesterday. That was nice, as usual.

But an idea. I was alright to take those two weeks off in light of the news from my editor, but now I’m rearing to get back into the race. Until I think of something, I’ll fiddle with the typewriter some more.


February 16, 2018

Hurrah! An idea struck not five minutes after I penned those last words yesterday. Not another novella- it’s too soon to launch into a bigger project anyway- but a nice short story. And by ‘nice,’ I naturally  mean ‘horrifying and thought-provoking,’ but those are ultimately the same thing.

And you’ll never believe where the idea came from! The typewriter! I was idly skimming the words I’d typed last on it when I saw at the bottom a line I do not remember writing. But I must have…after all, I’d had a couple too many Poe family eggnogs before last I pounded at its keys. It took barely three minutes for me to read the words, imagine a plot, and open a new document.

Now, not six hours later, I have a revised and chilling product. I love it. Oh, being in love with one of your creations is the most wonderful feeling. I always understand the opening chapters of Genesis best when I have just produced something I can proclaim “very good.”

Thank you, typewriter, for holding onto an idea I might otherwise have forgotten amidst multiple cups of eggnog. When I went just now to pat it in thanks, I could swear I saw it’s keys shift. I must have accidentally pressed something, but I still felt a shiver down my spine. In that moment, it was eerily resemblant of a beast baring its teeth.

But no, my mind is just in a whimsical state. As I look now, it is the same chunk of still metal that it was before.

No more eggnog for me! But I can’t help being a little giddy off my own ideas, now, can I?


February 20, 2018

I woke to a piece of good news and a piece of unfortunate news. The good news is that my novella is already at the top of the publisher’s list and will be on its way into the world in record time. The bad news…

My laptop is broken. There is a massive crack across the base of the keyboard. I heard a crash last night and thought perhaps a shelf had fallen off the wall, but when I checked in the morning, everything appeared in order. Everything, that is, except for the cracked laptop. The typewriter was disturbed too, though whatever caused the breakage must not have been able to hurt the iron of the Royal. I reset the typewriter and am scheduled to have my laptop repaired as soon as possible.

But what could have caused this?


February 21, 2018

When I went to retrieve my laptop this morning to take it in for repairs, I was met with a horrific sight. It lay spreadeagled on the floor, like a book whose covers have been splayed and torn. The repairman said it was beyond fixing, though the crack I found yesterday would have been alright.

I asked Susan if she had perhaps bumped it, but both of us know that’s unlikely as I’ve always been the clumsy one and she has never so much as chipped a glass. Our cat has not entered my office since the allergy fiasco three years ago. I have nobody but myself to blame. I suppose I left it balanced precariously on the desk…

I went back into the office to investigate just now and, as before, nothing was amiss. Nothing besides the Royal, which had shifted slightly from the place I remember it. But I clearly cannot trust my memory to be exact. When I moved it back in place, I rediscovered words I must have typed on it last time I was fiddling with it in a fit of idleness. The words were chilling and, not surprisingly, I do not remember composing them, but I will take credit and employ them in a horror story soon enough.


February 24, 2018

Speaking of horror, the past few days have been terrible. I woke on the 23rd to find my journal in tatters! It was clamped under the metal jaws of the Royal and for a split second I was inspired by the thought that the typewriter looked exactly like a predator and my poor journal its prey, pages fluttering limply like the wings of a slain bird.

But the fancy faded as I realized the extent of the damage. All but the final page upon which I had written had been slashed and torn in the most awful manner. I blamed the cat, much to Susan’s protests that Millicent had not been anywhere near my office, and tossed her (the cat- not Susan) unceremoniously out into the muddy snow.

I’d better lock the office door. Millicent is too smart for her own good and one more act of destruction will lead to hers…


February 26, 2018

My last prediction, scribbled on some spare scraps of paper in the absence of my dearly departed journal, came true.

Susan, usually so calm and collected, has been inconsolable. Millicent (too smart for her own good, I said!) found her way into the office and managed to pull the Royal typewriter off the desk, right down on top of her, crushing her small ribcage. Susan doesn’t believe this is possible, but I see no other explanation. Irritating as her fur might have been to my eyes and nose, I never hated the feline enough to plot her demise! 

Well, I must go begin digging a small grave for poor Millie. But with Susan glaring at me from her teary eyes, I feel a little as if the grave were my own.


March 1, 2018

Things are looking up. I’ve been writing these journal entries on loose-leaf paper, but will purchase a binder soon. I’ve discarded of Millicent’s things and Susan seems slightly less upset. My new laptop is set to be delivered tomorrow evening.

And that’s not a moment too soon! I’ve been tampering with the Royal and whenever I return to read the words I’ve typed mindlessly, I find a new story idea brewing! I do fear that my memory is becoming lax, though, for I don’t often remember the story ideas that I later return to love.

But I’ll just let Susan know and take whatever vitamins she recommends without complaining. I am content, after all, for it seems my creative block has been lifted and ideas just flow and flow and flow.

Oh, how thankful I am for this impulse buy. As I write this, I glance occasionally over at the Royal, even stopping to pat its cold head as if it were a cat. This makes me laugh, though I cannot tell poor Susan: Who needs a cat when you have a beastie like this typewriter?

Funny, I can almost hear it purring. My imagination is such fun, much more fun than a snappy memory.


March 2, 2018

I fell asleep in my office, writing away by hand at an idea that I was particularly struck by. But I woke feeling that I had been struck by more than an idea. Not only did I have a pounding headache (Susan confirms that there is a lump on my skull she cannot account for) but my writing hand was squashed beneath the Royal.

How did I manage this in my sleep? Unless Susan decided to change her entire character and begin playing gruesome pranks, I believe I ought to see a sleep specialist. It seems perhaps Millicent was innocent and I might have a critical case of sleep walking.


March 4, 2018

It’s getting difficult to write. My writing hand did not hurt terribly at first, but it has swollen tremendously. Thankfully my new laptop is here so I can type again.


March 6, 2018

This is Susan. I am dictating for my husband, whose hand is out of commission. He blames the Royal, but I blame too little sleep and too much frantic writing late at night under the influence. He says not to write that. Too late. Sorry, dear. It’s not often I get to put my perspective in words and I’m enjoying this a bit more than I ought.

I put the Royal on the top shelf in the office, out of the way. I think it’s becoming an obsession and that it is not quite healthy. The hubby says that’s not true. He also says he hates the term “hubby,” but last I checked, I’m the one with the pen in hand so I get to decide the wording for once.


March 8, 2018

A full day away from writing was a torture only a little worse than listening to Susan write in my journal. I could not suffer either again and so am writing- painstakingly- with my left hand. Must use shorter sentences. That hurt.

But I can type.

And have an idea.

So type I shall.


March 9, 2018

It’s the wee hours. Been typing all night. Susan asleep next door. Office clock ticking. Want a drink. And sleep. Almost done with story.

Heard a noise. Like clackity-clack. Ha. Clackity. Hard to write with left hand. Kind of fun.

Sounds like a typewriter. Weird.

Did the Royal shift? It’s on the shelf just up there, above my head. Still there, barely over the edge.

Over the edge…

Oh dear.

I can almost imagine it falling and crushing me…like poor Millie. Chomping down on my neck…like my poor journal. Cracking my bones…like the laptop.

But that’s ridiculous. Silly.

It’s there, though. I can see it now.

Over the edge…




Ordinary Beauty

Sometimes I want to weep

At unnoticed beauty –

That’s not seen for its shyness,

Dismissed, “ordinary.”

It’s in the chatter of the birds,

The smell of mesquite trees,

The ebb and flow of whispered words

Caught by th’eavesdropping breeze.

In foamy sips of coffee

In silly, printed cups,

And in the dreamy things I think

When I’m just waking up.

In books written for children

That yet I love and keep.

In the softness of my bed

As I drift back to sleep.

When in rare quiet moments,

I slow my busy mind,

I fall in love with beauties

Of daily, simple kind

And realize that perhaps- perhaps!

The truest art of all

Is found more oft’ than splendor

In beauties sweet and small.

Year in Review: The Arts

This year was crazy and everyone seems to be bidding 2017 good riddance. However, there are so many beautiful things that I discovered and enjoyed this year! Though Facebook tried to make my “year in review” (and somehow managed to gather all of the photos I am least inclined to post), my true year in review consists of my favorite pieces of art that, though not necessarily created in 2017, I was fortunate enough to enjoy this year.

My Artistic Year in Review

(basically a list of my favorite things)

Sculpture: Bernini’s “Apollo and Daphne”


While I adore all of Bernini’s works, this one struck me and seeing it in person during a trip to Rome was extraordinary. The expressions on the character’s faces are so alive and the stone itself seems to move and breathe with the grace of dancers. Looking at it made me feel more alive, as if Bernini were sculpting my movements as I circled the glorious work. Gazing at it made me more aware of myself as a creation “fearfully and wonderfully made.”

Painting: “The Woman in Red” by Giovanni Boldini


I stumbled upon this painting on Pinterest and immediately knew I needed use it for my junior piano recital poster and more than a few people asked me how I managed to get a painting of myself… It was humorous having to explain that no, the woman in the painting is not me as I was 1) never a model and 2) was not alive during the Impressionist era. Still, this made the work more personal and I am thankful to now have a reproduction of it hanging above my piano at home.

Architecture: Glasgow Cathedral – Glasgow, Scotland


I was disappointed to find that the choir was on sabbatical and would not be doing evensong during my stay in Glasgow. However, both the inside and out of this building are stunning. I felt an incredible sense of awe as I entered and spent more than a few minutes just sitting in the pews praying with my eyes open to the splendor of the Beautiful that lends itself to objects of beauty (couldn’t help the Plato reference there). Also, just outside the Cathedral is the Necropolis, a Victorian cemetery that is filled with crumbling old tombstones, wildflowers, and stories waiting to be unearthed. A hike up the hill of this graveyard gives the most spectacular panoramic view of the Cathedral and Glasgow as a whole.

Theatrical Production: Hamlet starring Andrew Scott


I love the West End and, when I had a free night in London, was so ridiculously excited to find cheap tickets to see Andrew Scott (aka Moriarty from BBC’s Sherlock) star in a version of my favorite Shakespeare play. Not only was Scott terrific, but the production put a Cold War era twist on the story that worked perfectly. (Pro tip: purchase “obstructed view” seats for last minute tickets; they are cheaper and often the view is still quite good.)

Musical: Jane Eyre by Paul Gordon and John Caird 

Of the books written by the Bronte sisters, Wuthering Heights is so far my favorite. However, the Jane Eyre musical redeemed a novel that I formerly considered “too tidy and stiff.” The music is beautiful, the lyrics are brilliant, and the story is made infinitely more human and powerful. Only one other person I know has ever heard this soundtrack, but I highly recommend it to any literature or music lover as it is excellent in every possible way.

Instrument: Bagpipes


While I regret my expense of 100 pounds on a set of bagpipes I cannot play to save my life, I fell in love with their music. It turns out, the astringent sound of bagpipes has a calming effect on my overactive mind since it drives out all other thoughts than “I am a Scottish warrior princess and I can do anything.” Plus, I fell in love with Scotland and now bagpipes sound like home to me. (Oh, and I use the terrible video of my first attempt at playing them as a conversation starter or ender, depending on who I’m talking to.)

Piano Piece: The Dante Sonata by Franz Liszt

Learning this piece made me cry. A lot. And bleed. And sweat. You think I’m kidding? No. It’s literally a piece about the Inferno. But the wonderful ties between music and literature (my two loves) are what got me through and I am so happy with my final performance of this piece! (Check out the link above!)

Symphonic Work: Beethoven’s Eroica Symphony 

Not only is this great running music (see post “The Eroica 10k”), but it is just incredible for any occasion. Nothing is more empowering than listening to this symphony. Not even bagpipe music. From a more analytical standpoint, it also has the key features of Beethoven’s style: fighting against strict measures, dynamic contrasts of volume and mood, powerful instrumentation, and- best of all- the underlying idea of an anthem to a single great soul.

Album: Notos by the Oh Hellos


I love everything by the Oh Hellos, so I was delighted to find that they recently released a new album! It is marvelous and made a long drive across the desert so much better. (Obviously I listened through it more than once.)

Poetry (large scale): The Rime of the Ancient Mariner by Samuel Taylor Coleridge


This was mentioned in a lecture I heard at Cambridge by Malcolm Guite. As soon as I returned home, I purchased a copy and read it with awe. It was so beautiful and mysterious and I still have yet to decide my exact thoughts on it, which makes me love it even more. Highly recommend, but especially if read aloud with great expression. It inspired my performance of the Beethoven’s “Tempest” Sonata and Liszt’s “Dante” Sonata with its storms and spirituality.

Poetry (smaller works): The Singing Bowl by Malcolm Guite

I listened to these read aloud by the poet on a drive from California to Arizona whilst watching a sunrise. It was a lovely hour of poetry, theology, and natural beauty. Although I’d loved his lecture at Cambridge, hearing his original poetry read aloud made it so much more powerful. It is inspiring to know there is a modern poet who sings in the tune of the greats yet maintains his own clear voice.

Novel: Moby Dick by Herman Melville


I expected this book to be as dry as dust, which- since it is about the ocean- is ironic. However, I came to appreciate the great depths of this narrative (pun intended, as always). There is a great deal of philosophy hidden throughout and, as with Coleridge, I have not yet determined my exact ideas regarding this book. I have many theories, though, and am itching to write a thesis on it… Oh, and there are tons of whale facts, so that’s interesting! Others might argue they distract from the plot, but I naturally have a theory on why they are, in fact, essential to the overarching themes. Do your brain a favor and dive into this book!

YA Novel: The Scorpio Races by Maggie Stiefvater


This was the brain candy that I needed after a semester of heavy study. However, it was far from mindless! It was clever, endearing, and exciting all at once. I raced through it in a matter of a couple of hours and am glad to find another YA author that writes passion about mythology, relationships, family, and hardship in a believable way, incorporating wit and suspense with brilliance. (Basically, I was glad to find a YA novel that I could read in public without feeling ashamed. This one was far from an embarrassing teen romance and I was proud to read it at my favorite coffee shop for all to see!)

Short Story: “The Scythe” by Ray Bradbury


Every story in Bradbury’s The October Country inspired both love and fear in my literary soul. I am admittedly a Bradbury fanatic and accredit him with inspiring me to try my hand at short stories, but I believe my admiration is merited. “The Scythe” is a short story with the emotional depth and character development of a novel. It is mysterious and beautiful and tragic all at once and I will happily force any one of my friends to borrow my copy and read it, as well as all of its sibling stories.

Library: Tynsdale House-  Cambridge, England


I could have stayed in that creaking, musty library for days. It was colorful with the spines of diverse books and alive with the buzzing thoughts of its scholars busy at work. I found an empty desk that I swear had my  name on it… A brilliant and intimate literary/theological destination that I look forward to visiting again.

Movie: Dunkirk 


Many have complained about this movie, but I found it to be remarkable. It was simultaneously heart-wrenching and heart-warming and, overall, one of the most powerful cinematic experiences I have ever had. Kenneth Branagh is a magical human being, but the entire cast was terrific. The storytelling, comprised of three different amounts of time and three different locations (land, air, and sea), was captivating and fit together with the intricacy of a well-crafted, multi-narrator novel. The soundtrack, minimalism with effects such as the “shepard tone” to enhance the intensity, effectively kept me on the edge of my seat and my senses as alert as if I were one of the characters in the midst of war. The acting, visuals, story, and music were all phenomenal and, combined, made for a film that, like Dunkirk itself, will not soon be forgotten.


Dessert: Stroopwafel


Is it a waffle? Is it a cookie? Who knows and who cares! Just put it on top of your cup of cocoa and enjoy its melty, delicious caramel goodness!

Coffee: Cappuccino from Costa Coffee


To my dismay, the U.S. is not advanced enough to have Costa Coffee shops on every corner…Sorry, Starbucks. However, I enjoyed enough of their cappuccinos during my month in the U.K. to hold me until my next visit. (Yes, coffee is an art. I mean, look at that palm tree!)

Poll: Best Part of Movies are Concessions


PHOENIX, ARIZONA- Polling of consumers leaving a current blockbuster film reveal that the best part of the movies are, indeed, the concessions.

“But we don’t just mean popcorn and jumbo sodas!” said customer relations director Jack Hughs. “It turns out that the concessions made by viewers are what allow them to enjoy almost any movie that the market produces.”

When asked what kinds of concessions, Mr. Hughs replied, “Oh, there are a wide variety, much like our candy selection.”

These include:

  • ignoring obvious plot holes
  • Junior Mints
  • allowing for archetypal characters with little to no development
  • excusing poor pacing
  • never expecting singers to actually sing
  • Mike and Ikes
  • being dazzled by painful CGI animation
  • extra-butter popcorn
  • excusing the cliche and predictable as “heartwarming”
  • extra medium diet fat-free, sugar-free, gluten-free, dairy-free, vegan soda water
  • ignoring lazy filming mistakes
  • enjoying soundtracks that sound roughly like pop radio
  • nachos
  • excusing cultural or historical inaccuracy for the sake of a good story

“We are thinking of expanding our menu to incorporate all of these,” said Mr. Hughs.

95% of those polled, including Local Millennial Kale McBirkenstock, are in favor of this.

“People come to the movies to be entertained, plain and simple,” Miss McBirkenstock said when interviewed. “I mean, I just want to watch something that makes me- like- not even.”

Her boyfriend, Lux Filterton, added, “Yeah, after all, the point of art is to just give you all the feels. Oh, and the more gratuitous violence, sex, and language, the (expletive) better…those are powerful literary techniques, right?”

This poll reveals potentially good news for the film industry, though; the less thought consumers want to put into their viewing experience, the less thought producers need to put into their cinema. As a result, nearly 200 new movies are expected to premiere between January and February alone and, while critics are lamenting the decline of well-crafted storytelling, crowds are applauding what has been described as “spectacle…without all that nasty substance.”


The Inkwell

“A steaming beverage is often the friendliest of muses. To the creator of such, I owe this work.”

The Inkwell

My journal burst into poetry today. That’s how I know things are getting serious. Whenever I’m being reasonable- which is most of the time- I write my personal narrative in ordinary (though rather eloquent) prose. But on occasion it explodes into poetry and that’s when I know I either am going to be brilliant or mad.

This time, it’s both.

I was writing as I am now thinking: linearly, in understandable syntax.

But then, it happened.

Poetry happened, for I suddenly realized what it was I had been trying to figure out, the cause of the underlying discomfit I’ve felt over the past few months… No. Not months. Years. My whole life. This unsettled feeling has simply climaxed as I have neared the age others look forward to but I dread as a creative death sentence: retirement.

The poem is scarcely legible and rather terribly written, in my professional opinion. And, glancing with no small amount of pride at the wall of books which I myself have authored, I believe my professional opinion is one to be trusted. Yet, regardless of its disappointing review by Yours Truly, this poem exists; it was born of my brain, fighting its way above its sister and brother ideas to be singly born of my pen. My own ink and thought, almost as dear as my own flesh and blood. Poor as it may be, it is mine. And, poor as it may be, it has something of genius in its fibre, like a great mind in an ugly body (which, in my professional opinion- being just such a mind in just such a body- is often more useful than a brainless beauty.)

I tore the little scribble from my journal and tossed it, but now regret aborting this pitiful brainchild. This pitiful, promising brainchild.

I extract it with care from its underserved cradle, the rubbish bin, and hold it in my hands. This, this I can use.

I tack it to the bulletin board above my desk and I skim it once more. The intrigue of this idea becomes lovely to me. The more I consider it, the more the brilliance of its suggestion washes away the gore of a hasty, unmetered birth. I like this little idea of mine, in all its ragged swaddling clothes of free verse, and I intend to raise it. I intend to put it to use, my last great creation. This little idea will grow from larval poetry into something marvelous. I see the site of my plan, craft it with the stuff of my mind and furnish it to suit this idea which I have raised from reject to ruler…

Only a week later, I have a venue rented, large enough to show that my career  has paid me well and small enough to have a cozy atmosphere. Within another week, I have a small staff, just a young man to assist in my new art of espresso brewing and a grad student to advise on making the place ‘hip.’

A couple more days pass and I’ve furnished it with the coziest chairs that have sat long unused in my vast, empty, overpriced home.

Two days later, my cafe, the Inkwell, has customers. Better yet, my ideas have writers.


What can I get started for you?” I ask, my voice a third higher than normal. Its my customer service voice; I use it whenever taking  -or, rather, giving- orders. It’s a slow day at the Inkwell Cafe and I ought to be extra service oriented; it is not a slow day for ideas, after all. And those ideas are my real business; Selling coffee is just a side gig- if you will- to make this first business possible.

The customer blinks up at me, squinting at my face for a moment before blushing and looking away. But she is not quick enough; I saw it in her keen, steel-blue eyes even in that split second of contact. This is a writer. Or, at least, she will be: I asked for her coffee order, but she was not thinking about that right then. She was trying to decide how old I am. Or where I am from. Some concrete detail that she could use for a character sketch.

I like her already. I’ll brew something extra innovative for her. 

“I’m not sure.” She blinks. There is no menu in sight. She makes a show of looking around.

“We don’t have a menu.” I am blunt, dropping the service voice for a moment.

“Oh. Good to know I’m not crazy,” she laughs.

“No, just me,” I say, winking at her. She blinks in surprise but laughs again. She either doesn’t believe me or is undaunted by lunatics. If the latter, she will make an outstanding writer.

“So what’ll it be?”

“There’s no menu,” she says. “What do you suggest?”

“Hmmm.” I stare at her and she stares right back. We are analyzing each other, I can tell. Oh, I have not had such a perfect customer in ages. Not since the young man who went on to win a Pulitzer. Too bad he never could account for his inspiration. My eyes flick upwards in annoyance as I remember him. I should not be angry, though. I knew the price of sharing ideas. I cannot reasonably expect any credit.

I return my attention to the girl. I had an idea earlier that would just suit her. She would give it a superb voice…innocent yet with gumption. Yes, she would do nicely for just such an idea.

“We have a terrific blonde roast,” I say.

She side eyes me, bold now, and tosses her fair hair. “Ironic, isn’t it? Never been a fan of blonde roast.”

So much for that idea. She needs something a little more bitter, but also frothy. Rather paradoxical, really. I have to think back to ideas I’d long tucked away. “Spanish latte with almond milk. It’s exotic yet homey, sweet yet spicy. It’s got a nice foam to it, but its espresso flavor is strong and clear.”

“Delicious,” she says. I smile and she pays. Nailed it.

“Name?” I ask.

“Austen,” she says. “With an ‘e’.”

I am more certain of my choice than before. She goes to sit beside a sunshiny window and whips out a notebook from her overstuffed purse. I blink and when I open my eyes again, she is scribbling furiously. She stops, grimaces. It appears the muse is not coming easily today.

I can help with that.

I sprinkle spices over the steamed milk. It’s a slow day, so I take my time, enjoying being able to not only give the recommendations and take the orders, but prepare the brew as well. I find it is more effective that way…gives it a personal touch.

“Austen, your Spanish latte is ready,” I have an employee call out for me. I’m the owner. I might take orders and make orders, but I also give them and, as I do not like shouting, I have Matthew to do it. He’s a terrible writer I’ve found out, but he’s got a good shouting voice so I keep him around.

The girl moves slowly, her face scrunched up against the sunlight pouring through the window and the ideas that are apparently refusing to come to her. She glides back to her seat with the brimming latte and takes a timid sip.

I blink and she is writing.

She takes another sip and writes faster.

She gulps and writes with such speed it is as if the coffee is flowing directly into the words on the page. Remarkable. She might be the best yet.

The latte is finished and she has turned the page in her notebook four times.

Eight pages.

Not a bad draft for only a ten ounce latte.

But then, there was a lot put into that one latte, just as there must be a lot in that one story. Both are a great little idea, full of sweet spices and surprises, strong espresso and expressions. She slaps her notebook shut in victory, licks the rim of her cup, which is caked with dried foam, and marches out of the Inkwell Cafe with her head held high. I recognize the bounce in her step. It is the dance of a writer who has just written something with which she has fallen wholeheartedly in love.

I take a sip of ice water and sigh contentedly. It was a brilliant little idea and a delicious little latte. I’m glad I found such a customer to enjoy both.


“What can I get started for you?” I ask.

The young man before me stares blankly for a moment, not replying. I smile, understanding.

It’s a busy day. Finals week is hitting the university students hard and they have long since discovered the Inkwell to be a haven for the studious and procrastinating alike. Its armchairs- once forlorn in my lonely home- are by now well-worn but still smell faintly of potpourri. They are filled with tired, caffeinated bodies, each scribbling away at a term paper or skimming a textbook long ignored.

The wear and tear of exams is heavy upon them, so I made a pact with myself: no specials. Only regular coffee orders this week. Rather than recommending elaborate beverages suited to a story, I use my gift of analysis and prescribe drinks like a doctor. Or a dealer. Either way, it gets the job done.

I turn back to the exhausted, still-determined-to-pass-his-classes man before me. I ought to stick to my self-made pact and assign him a simple drink: caffeine and calcium sprinkled with cinnamon to liven his spirits and a protein bar on the side.

But one look into his eyes, one peek into the windows of his soul, and I know. He doesn’t need something to get him through this week. He needs something to get him through life. And coffee- just the regular cappuccino I was already beginning to ring up- cannot do that. This young man needs a story, a vacation from himself but a journey of self-discovery nonetheless. And I know just which type of story he needs. I can see it now, inside my mind, buzzing lonely and patient by itself: an age-old idea, but suited to a young person in desperate need of something to care for and, in the caring, something to care for him. 

“I know what I can get started for you,” I say, answering my own question before he can open his mouth. This whole realization and reversal of plan occurred in a moment. Two blinks of the eye and I have decided to do something that might well change his life.

“Okay, thanks.” He does not protest. There is a longing in his eyes and I see clearly that he wants for something but is too weary to ask for it. My decision is confirmed.


“Telemachus,” he says, not missing a beat.

“Is it, really?” I raise my eyebrows, already scribbling his name onto a cup.

“No, but it’s fitting.”

“Waiting for Odysseus to return, are we?” The idea in my mind could hardly be more apt. Hints of home, undertones of growth, a wistful flavor… it’s perfect.

“Something like that.”

He looks into my eyes and beyond my eyes. They are just another set of window panes that he is straining to peer through. This present and vacant expression is one I’ve seen once before in a mirror during a time when I had no ideas. The one time in my life when not a single inkling buzzed in my mind and begged to be written.

I had never felt so useless as I did then…so lost. I was a writer unable to write, a creator unable to create. A queen bee without a hive.

If I had any doubts about my decision- concerns for his final grades, for instance- they are erased now. His look, whether he knows it or not, is one that begs for an idea. His eyes are the mirror I once stared into despairingly. I cannot deny a starving man his bread. Or, rather, his coffee.

He does not ask what it is I am making. I do not charge him. We understand each other, this young man and me. He goes and sits in a corner, at the bar lining the wall, facing nobody and staring diligently at a book he has already read to pieces.

“Telemachus, I have your dark chocolate orange mocha with extra cinnamon and single origin espresso,” calls out Matt. He looks at me, quirking an eyebrow. This is perhaps the most original and ridiculous order yet. I roll my eyes and shrug, as if the brooding young man had ordered it of his own accord…as if the mocha was not one of my most unusual ideas distilled into liquid form.

The young man rises and sullenly picks up his cup, the ship that will bring his Odysseus back to him, though he does not yet know it. I watch over counter as he takes a first sip. Nothing. Just a scrunching of his face as he tries to decide whether he likes it or not. But liking it is not what matters. What matters was that he keeps drinking and his mind begins buzzing. A barren hive no longer, I swear I can see the new little resident flit behind his eyes, which are no longer half-curtained but rather startled awake, thrown open by the light of dawning inspiration.

I smile and, before he realizes it, he smiles back. The grin does not fade from his tired face, but instead props up his sunken cheeks as he flips open a laptop and begins pounding furiously, euphorically, at the keys; his Odysseus, his muse and identity, at last has returned and he is typing furiously to meet him.


It is another busy day. Finals are over and the university students, like flowers poking their weary heads out from under a snow of papers and tests, are slowly coming to life again. I like to see them laughing again, going on dates again, reading for pleasure again. Sometimes and best of all, all three at once.

Just such a couple is here today, two lovers of words. I don’t slip them any ideas but I do help nudge their romance along a little. I work best as a secret muse, but I enjoy trying my hand as a subtle cupid once in a while. I find that latte art is as useful as the mythical arrows and that I am particularly skilled at making foam hearts. Subtle, but it might help nudge them along. Some dark chocolate shavings further set the mood.
I sneak glances at them, my own heart warmed to hear that they are flirting by arguing playfully whether Jane Austen or Emily Bronte is better. I hope they settle on Austen as any relationship founded on Bronte is doomed from the start.

“Austen!” calls a voice. I start, sure someone has read my mind.

I find the speaker, a brunette with eyes that are deep in both set and in expression. She is waving to a blonde girl in a green sweater. Austen. I remember her. Well, I remember the coffee I prepared for her anyway. A lovely sweet idea but with plenty of spice. I wonder how it turned out.

“Lynn!” she calls, waving back at her friend. She jerks her head toward the bar and her friend nods, saving her a seat so she can order.

“Hello,” I say, pretending I don’t remember her, pretending I am not anxious to ask after the charge I had entrusted to her. “What can I get started for you?”

“I liked what you made me last time,” she says, not missing a beat.

“Which was?”

“Spanish latte with almond milk.”

“Ah, of course.” There is a gleam in her eye that cannot be attributed to coffee alone. I cannot help my curiosity. “And, ah, how was it?”

“My best yet,” she says. An odd way to describe a coffee she did not have any hand in making, I think. Unless, she is not describing the coffee.

“What would you recommend this time?” she asks. “I am thinking something a bit…darker.”

“Darker would not suit you,” I say before I catch myself. I should let the girl order whatever coffee she wants, but I know that there is more than bitter taste at stake here.

“Oh, but I think it would,” she persists. “Nothing too dark, of course, but perhaps something with a little more suspense. A little more mystery to its…flavor.”

I flinch as I catch her eye. Those steel eyes are wide and lovely, like a cartoon princess. But they are also piercing, direct, and unavoidable.

I nod. “I have the perfect drink in mind.”

“I thought you might,” she says. She moves to take her seat beside her friend, but I stop her.

“Miss?” she turns. “Would your friend like anything? One of our regulars or perhaps a specialty?”

“Certainly a specialty,” she says without delay. “But nothing too bitter. She’s more of a warm and sweet sort…needs to ease into the idea of…coffee.”

A man behind her quirks an eyebrow at this, but if Austen realizes how strange her words sound to anyone besides us two, she does not show it. Rather, she flashes him a smile and blinks up at him with her enormous, focused eyes. He drops his wallet and, flustered, mumbles an apology as he picks it up, but she is already seated with her friend and chattering away. I get the flustered man a house roast black coffee. Nothing too creative for this one. But maybe he will make something of it. Sometimes my customers surprise me with their originality.

“Austen, I have your tall dark roast with a pump of sea salt vanilla,” calls Matthew. Then, when I finish the second drink, “Lynn, I have a lavender London fog with sugar sprinkles.”

Both girls retrieve their drinks. I can feel Austen’s gaze graze my downturned head, but I remain focused on the drink I am creating.

When they leave, I pass a peppermint tea latte to Matthew and go to busk their table. Under Austen’s saucer, I find a napkin with words scrawled over it in the hasty script of a writer whose mind outpaces her pen. I tuck it into my apron pocket and only later, during my dinner break, do I decipher it. An idea I know all too well stares up at me, though it is adorned in different words, dressed in the voice of another writer.

And it is all the more beautiful than I could have imagined.


A package lies on the counter when I arrive at the Inkwell. It is a cold November day and the rain is drizzling, not committed enough to pour nor whimsical enough to mist. The skies are foamy with dark clouds and I know by their London fog color exactly what drink will be most popular today. Well, what drink I will most recommend today.

“What’s this?” I ask, picking up the package. I expect Matthew to respond, but a dreamy voice floats over from the book-lined corner.

“It could be any number of things,” says Dahlia, the resident philosopher. I hired her at first to give marketing advice and keep inventory of the little library in the corner, but she has since nested in the oldest armchair and read her life away. I can think of worse jobs.

“Who left it?”

“I didn’t see.” Her owlish eyes are hidden behind thick glasses and a heavy book I wonder if she actually understands. Aristotle’s Physics.

“Some help you are,” I mutter.

“Thank you,” her voice murmurs drearily.

I open the package. It is wrapped in newspaper, I notice, letting it fall to the floor in a crinkly mess. A sight I have grown to love stares up at me: a new book, freshly published and swaddled in a colorful new sleeve. As is my habit, I raise it to my nose and inhale the smell of fresh paper and ink. I would always remember the smell of my own books, yet this one – born by the pen of another – smells familiar too. Perhaps it is silly, thinking that books made of the same basic materials can smell different, unique. But then, I see the author’s name:

Austen J. Steventon.

I open the back cover and the picture on the sleeve confirms the idea dawning in my mind. It’s the blonde girl with the steely eyes, the regular customer and the owner of the napkin covered in hasty scribbles that I have pinned above my desk.

The lover of coffee, writer of ideas.

I turn to the dedication.

“A steaming beverage is often the friendliest of muses. To the creator of such, I owe this work.”

That is all. It occurs to me she never would have known my name. I had long ago made it another principle for myself not to wear a name tag. It would be too easy then for customers to find that the letters on my apron matched those on the spines of their (maybe) favorite books. I am no Shakespeare, but I have enough of a following that working here, in my own cafe, could become unbearable. After all, it is small enough to have a cozy atmosphere and that does not accommodate crowds of celebrity hunters.

Still, one of the joys of being an author is that I have been able to whisper into the minds of many without ever showing my face. Few think to check the back flaps of books for author photos and I never thought to add one. My writing sells, but my face never would. And, of course, nobody expects their favorite author to be brewing coffee in a shabby cafe.

I read the dedication again and smile, my heart warming as I look upon the work I helped to generate. The best cup of cocoa could not have made me so comfortable as looking down on the collection of ideas I hold bundled in my arm. To think, I once despaired that these ideas would die before their birth but have now been nurtured to maturity under the creativity of another!

I turn the pages, stroking them fondly. I let them fall open to a story in the middle, reading it from the inside out. Even out of order, I find myself utterly lost in a story I thought I knew but has grown to be more beautiful than I’d ever dreamed. I flip back and read the title of this brainchild:

I nearly fall off of my barstool, but keep reading until I finish the story of a young man I remember all too well. Then, I am up and out the door, racing back to my house.

“Watch the cafe!” I shout to Dahlia.

“Any day,” she replies, chuckling to herself about the accidental rhyme before returning to the confusion of philosophy which she has chosen as her vocation.

I launch myself from my car as soon as I arrive, racing upstairs to my office. It’s here somewhere. I know it. I left it pinned up here. I shove aside the napkin Austen left behind once, nearly three years ago…so  many drinks and so many stories ago.

There. I find it. The paper, the poem. I write no letter. I simply sign my name at the bottom of the sheet which bears the bastard idea that started this all, that saved the lives of so many of its siblings, the stories I feared would never be written. Austen will understand, I tell myself. We share a mind, though I almost like hers better based on the words that I cannot shake from my vision.

I package it in an envelope and am on my way back to the cafe before I realize: I have no address and I cannot send the poem, this explanation I owe to one who has taken on the demands of the muse in my stead. I slow my frenzied driving, waving at a cop and hoping he will let me by on account of the lazy weather. He does. I reach the cafe and enter to find it as empty as before, Dahlia still buried in her book, Matthew puttering away in the back humming along to music I cannot make out.

I sit at the bar and unfold the poem. I might as well read it again.  I murmur its words, tasting them once more, though now with the guild of success to sweeten their sounds.

“My mind is a hive,

Swarming with ideas,

But I am no queen bee, busy though I keep.

I cannot bear them all

And so they fall,

Stillborn with wings yet twitching,

Larval thoughts that had already sought to fly,

To soar, to grow,

To spread their honey and seed

The thoughts and ideas of others…

But I am their failed ruler

And- worse-

Their failed mother.

I cannot nurture them all

And it’s Darwin’s dream

To watch them wrestle in my sleep,

The victor, the most compelling idea

(At the time)

Clambering over its fading siblings-

Those glimmerings of inspiration

That rise and fall,

Shine and die,

Knit together and unravel

In the twinkling of the mind’s fickle eye.

But the victors-

They grow.

They live and, in their freedom,

Are born and raised and bound

And rest in triumph on thrones

Of store shelves and night side-tables.

But the little ideas,

The miscarried, unborn,

Are what drive me mad

And always have.

They fade and fall

But never leave.

Small ghosts

That linger though ignored

As I focus on their more petulant siblings.

And yet.

I love them

And in so doing

Go mad.

I hear their buzzings,

Though they are supposedly still.

And I love their voices

Though they are supposedly mute.

I ache to ignore their infant mews.

I want to watch them grow,

To feed them nectar of ink

And have them pour out as honey

Onto a white page.

And though I know not how they might turn out,

I love them,

For they are my little ideas

That I captured in butterfly nets

And window glimpses

And moonlit nights

And crisp old grandfather books

Who might have given them an inheritance

Of literary greatness.

But they fall,

Smoked into restless sleep

By their own creator

Who has more bestselling ideas

To write and send forth.

If only I could share,

Could find a host

For these baby ghosts,

For these tiny ideas that deserve to live

And yet are crowded out by each other.

If I could but whisper them

Into the ears of another writer,

Another mother who might nurture them

With milky ink

Or a father who might provide them

A papery home.

I am prideful in my work

But I am not jealous of my ideas;

I love them too much to want to keep them

When I cannot give myself to them.

And I’m tired. And old.

The books on my shelf have multiplied.

They’ve become sequels and trilogies

And I am a grandparent unto them.

I can raise no more of my darling ideas.

They are too many for me.

But, perhaps.


I can work some sweet magic.

I wrote of such once before.

If I could but pour these ideas into the minds

And into the hearts

Of others…

Find hosts to drink them in,

Internalize them,

Feed on them as bees on nectar…

If I could make such a flower,

With ideas as its drink,

Then they – these starving stories-

Might have hope

Of growth and flight

And I might send them forth

Without having to write.

Mad, perhaps.

But brilliant as well.

The flower I craft will serve as

A true “Inkwell.”

As I read my poem for the first time since its conception, I know that this little idea has saved its siblings. The thoughts of this ragged poem blossomed into a plot that lead to the realization of stories I was preparing to abandon, stories that were translated from drink into ink and that I now am reading in published print.

I open to the first story in Austen’s book and pause and read the title. It reassures me, balm to my aging spirit and worrying mind. She knows. I need not send the poem. In her soul she must know, for it is all here in her words. I am relieved to realize this, but, better yet, I am relieved by the promise that this book and especially this first story offer. It seems to whisper back to me, saying:

“ Though you are growing older, the ideas that fly forth from my mind will not be forsaken. So long as the Inkwell Cafe exists and people like my author exist, the ever-buzzing muses will have lovers and homes.”

I whisper the title to myself again, savoring the honey of its sound as it drips from my lips:

“The Inkwell.”

Beautiful Lines

As a writer, I spend a great deal of time editing and lamenting over my own work. Admittedly, I probably should spend more time revising papers than text messages, (yay, overthinking!) but in either case I am painfully aware of my weaknesses as a writer.

However, sometimes I surprise myself as the ink on my page forms something truly lovely. My next story will not be published for at least a few more days, but in the meantime, here are some lines that I found to be beautiful (or, at least, intriguing) as I reread my first draft:

“I recognize the bounce in her step. It is the dance of a writer who has just written something with which she has fallen wholeheartedly in love.”


“On occasion [my journal] explodes into poetry and that’s when I know I either am going to be brilliant or mad.”


“I like this little idea of mine, in all its ragged swaddling clothes of free verse.”


“She either doesn’t believe me or is undaunted by lunatics. If the latter, she will make an outstanding writer.”


“Finals are over and the university students are coming to life again…I like to see them laughing again, going on dates again, reading for pleasure again. Best yet, all three at once.”


“They are flirting by arguing whether Jane Austen or Emily Bronte is better. I hope they settle on Austen…any relationship founded on Bronte is doomed from the start.”


“A steaming beverage in a warm mug is often the friendliest of muses. To the creator of such, I owe this work.”


Writing: Expectations vs. Reality

  1. Expectation: Showing off your stellar vocabulary. Reality: Spending ten minutes trying to remember how to spell “potpourri” because you’re too proud to look it up.
  2. Expectation: Writing elegant rhymes to express your emotion. Reality: Sounding like an angsty Dr. Seuss.
  3. Expectation: Writing free verse poetry that seems authentic and avant garde. Reality: Sounding like an angsty and, now, drugged Dr. Seuss.
  4. Expectation: Scribbling thoughts on random scraps of paper because inspiration strikes at unexpected moments. Reality: Looking like a conspiracy theorist at best or a serial killer at worst as you frantically try to assemble your notes.
  5. Expectation: Making keen, discrete observations of your surroundings for later use. Reality: Looking like a creep when you make eye contact with a potential character and being mistaken for a critic as you analyze your favorite cafe.
  6. Expectation: Having movies and theme parks made after your bestselling novels. Reality: Writing silly blog posts late at night. (Unless you are J.K. Rowling, in which case the reality is still “having movies and theme parks made after your bestselling novels.”)
  7. Expectation: Carefully crafting characters that perfectly follow the planned plot. Reality: Controlling your characters is like herding winged cats. Not only are they cats, but now they can fly.
  8. Expectation: Planning a time to write and doing so in an orderly fashion. Reality: “THE VOICES IN MY HEAD SAID I MUST WRITE NOW!” (usually “now” is in the middle of another project, late at night, or somewhere without any form of writing material whatsoever)
  9. Expectation: People reading your silly blog posts all the way through and gaining an internet following. Reality: Your fan club continuing to consist mainly of your grandma, your best friend, and the fake cat lady blog your mom made to spam you.
  10. Expectation: Having many writing woes to blog about. Reality: Only being able to come up with nine and realizing that is also a problem you can add to the list.

I had fun jotting this down and think this might turn into another #WriterProblem series! Do you have any writing expectations vs. realities? Share them in the comments!